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[17 Apr 2007|08:23am] |
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it has been a heck of a long time since i updated this. so much has happened.
new york was absolutely FABULOUS. i learned so much about myself, my friends, other people, the city. i didnt know i was so capable of so many things - getting up at 5; (sort of) figuring out the subway; surviving pretty much on Poland Spring bottled water. we did a lot of service work, but my favorite place we volunteered at was Iris House, an HIV/AIDS outreach center in Harlem. it was the most wonderful environment and we made safe sex kits (my job was putting in the finger condoms...which are pretty much the niftist things ever). to know that i was helping out together something that would be passed in the community that could possibly help prevent one person from getting sick, well it just overwhelms me. we saw so much and we didnt even see half of the things there are to see. so i needless to say, i will be back there in no time!
school has been tremendously stressful. its been a really tough semester. but me, my physics, my bios, and my two econs are chugging along. i have a contingency plan if my grades dont turn out too well...so i am ok with that...i mean, i'm not. i pray i pass every thing, but if i dont, i have a back-up plan.
we have one more week of school. and then meg, nicole and i are done living together. and that just totally breaks my heart. excited as i am to live with jess and chelsea (because I AM, dont get me wrong! i am hyped like whoa) but it will be the end of an era when we leave 301 A. to know that some stranger will be living in my room, well, i am not ok with that. but life is change. such is life. life is such that it is filled with change. i dont know what i am saying.
lastly, its is April 17th. i have four months until i am 23. good god. my life. so old.
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| start spreading news...i'm leaving today...i'm gonna be apart of it...NEW YORK! NEW YORK! |
[28 Feb 2007|12:37pm] |
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today is wednesday. that means that in less that 3 days i will be on my way to NEW YORK CITY. so much is going to be happening there...here is a schedule...because i want to make people jealous:
Saturday - leave at 5 am (i am driving the first shift...i have my TAB energy on hand) and we will be arriving in New Jersey between 6-7, taking a train in the city, and then subway-ing it to where we are staying. Estimated time of complete arrival is 10(ish).
Sunday - we are going on the Circle Line and going to Liberty Island and Ellis Island (and i WILL be finding my great-grandfather's name on the wall that has ever name of ever person that entered America through Ellis Island) and we are also going to Ground Zero, too!
Monday - Soup Kitchen in Midtown (6 am - 9 am), walking around for a little bit, Food Pantry for HIV patients in Harlem (11:30-2), subway-ing it back to the Lower East Side to volunteer at an after school program...(we dont really knowing we are doing at night yet!)
Tuesday - GOOD MORNING AMERICA (yes, we will be in the audience! TUNE IN!), delivering Meals on Heals somewhere, back to the Lower East Side, and then it is me and Jess' turn to make dinner (i think that's tuesday...we making homemade mac and cheese and chicken fingers, um yum!)...and night activity.
Wednesday - Eating breakfast at Tiffany's (yes, we actually going to do that!), some shopping, Meals on Heels, after school program, night time = party time.
Thursday - TODAY SHOW (we will have signs, look for us!), Meals on Heels, visiting the Lower East Side Tenement Museum (which is going to be amazing), evening good times!
Friday - Visiting The Metropolitan Museum of Art, shopping shopping shopping, going to the Museum of Modern Art, dinner in Greenwich Village.
Saturday - Crying a lot because we have to come back to dreary, ugly, boring, old Kalamazoo.
i mean i have on Big Apple Red nail polish. i am clearly ready.
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[19 Feb 2007|10:06am] |
my name is lauren. and i hate alcohol.
i just got over my second case of alcohol poisoning. i am over it. i am never drinking like that again.
so stupid.
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| my skin is freezing, my lips are chapped, my eyes are burning, and my tongue is burnt |
[07 Feb 2007|12:18am] |
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it is officially february 7th. which means it is officially the end of february 6th. thank goodness. i know the day would be horrible when it started. i only 2.5 hours of sleep. i woke up to find that all of my friends who are student teaching had a snow day, whereas i (the one who put off all her classes and is now paying for it b/c 1) i have the most obnoxious class schedule ever and 2) is going to graduate later than all of friends...thus meaning i am not student teaching...thus meaning i did NOT have a snow day!) DID HAVE SCHOOL. i had school and it was 20 below zero.
i went to work and uttered the phrase "western michigan university, how may i help you? yes we ARE open!" 3 trillion times. i found out i got a 10 out of 20 on my macroeconomics exam. i then went and took/most likely failed a microeconomics quiz. got out of math early so instead of being a nonslacker...i skipped my next two classes and came home and began writing a paper. i went to my ASB NYC leader meeting and did the now weekly "oh my god nothing is ready for this fucking trip" freak out. and then had a deep soul searching moment. i have been informed (even though i knew this prior about myself, i didnt know others thought this) recently that i have a "big personality"...which means "bitch shut the fuck up and let other people talk"...well not really...but that is what i am taking it as. i am loud and obnoxious and i am not taking a vow of silence.
then i came home and wrote wrote wrote this paper. i knocked it out. but it is pretty much the worst piece of paper writing known to man. who really cares about meritocracy and the hidden curriculum anyways?
i hope today/tomorrow is better than yesterday/today. i dont know what i am saying. i need sleeping. i need that green lunesta butterfly to flutter through my window and softly lull me off to sleep.
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| i'm feeling young and reckless... |
[23 Jan 2007|11:27pm] |
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so this past saturday i learned what happens when you mix captain morgans, caffiene free diet coke, and a good club mix bouncing off the walls of firehouse...you wanna know what that equals...a very drunk and very happy lauren. and really what is better. i am learning that soberiety is highly over-rated. alcohol makes you feel like chinchilla in the heat...
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| east side walk it out. west side walk it out. |
[13 Jan 2007|01:32pm] |
these are my pows and wows of the present.
- i HATE econ. micro. macro. it all sucks. and i should know b/c i have to take two classes about it this semester. i want to die.
- i LOVE stepping. "stomp the yard." i want to join a black fraternity. yes, i know i am white. and yes, i know i am a girl...but white girls can't step...val and i tried and it just didnt look quite as cool as it did in the movie.
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| i mean...the first day of 2007...starting things off right! |
[02 Jan 2007|02:12pm] |
Sadness is easier because its surrender. I say make time to dance alone with one hand waving free.
So my first day of 2007 was quite the experience. Well, we saw "Dreamgirls" (I want to dress up as the Supremes for Halloween next year now) and that amazing, partially because the movie was amazing and partially because the audience was shouting "you go girl!" and "that's right sista!"
Then, all Jess and I wanted to do was rent "The Last Kiss"...but apparently fate had other plans for us. When this whole adventure began it was 10:35 pm. First, I was out of gas and out of money. So i thankfully made it home and i was able to "borrow" my mother's Sunoco credit card...we barely made it up to the gas station...only to find that it was dark and long-closed...thus we had to drive back home to get another gas credit card. (Now this is the part of the story that i should explain that i live at least 7 minutes away from anything that is not a subdivision, so all this driving to and fro on fumes is quite a dicey venture). So then we got a Mobil card, jumped in the car and sputtered off to the nearest Mobil...four miles away. Also the clock is ticking b/c i somehow got it in my head that Blockbuster closed at 11...by the time we got to Mobil, i filled up my car and helped Jess pick out a salty snack, it was 10:45...so we had to drive back up the road to the Blockbuster...but its ok, because now we had gas! So we literally sprinted into Blockbuster, only to find out that it closed at midnight. We speed walked along the new releases and saw that "The Last Kiss" was indeed out...but A-HA i went up to the counter and found that all was not lost, for one copy was resting on the return-to-shelf-cart. We got rang up and went home to partake in some "Last Kiss"-ness.
So we came home, got in our pajamas, starting making cheese sticks, and i pulled the DVD out of my purse. I opened it up...but no...there was just vacant DVD space. no DVD! no movie! NO "LAST KISS"-NESS!!! WTF! we ran back upstairs threw our clothes back on, ran to the car, and sped back to blockbuster. it was now 11:40...remember how i said everthing is 7 minutes away...so we got there at 11:44...because i was speeding. anyways, we ran in the store and showed the employees and all the guy (who is so clearly a Dungeon Master when he isnt restocking the shelves with copies of "Material Girls" and "Stick It") could say is "Well...that's gay!" I MEAN! RUDE! POLITICALLY INCORRECT MUCH! GOD! I mean, it was your fault that we had to drive all the way back here because you didnt take that second and a half to open up the case and check that the movie was actually there...which, correct me if i'm wrong, isnt that part of the job description! I THINK IT IS! So we had to pick another movie...which was quite the fiasco b/c all we wanted to see was "The Last Kiss"...i was tempeted to knock over the displays and jess just layed on the ground and rolled around and laughed. I said that we should rent "the L word" just so the guy would think we WERE lesbians and that we WERE indeed offended by his "thats gay" comment...but we are not lesbians so we would not enjoy "the L word." it was now 11:58. the pressure to pick a movie! AGH! somehow we settled on "Elizabethtown"and i made sure that they opened up and check that the movie was actually in there. it was and it was fabulous. it provided me with two new favorite quotes. but i swear, that before this break is over...i WILL see "The Last Kiss!"
The Pacific Northwestern salmon beats itself bloody on its quest to travel hundreds of miles upstream against the current, with a single purpose...sex, of course! But also...life.
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| i had a blue, blue, blue christmas... |
[28 Dec 2006|10:14pm] |
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how was christmas? mine was slightly depressing for reasons that i dont really understand. which was sad...but then i got a little tipsy and that made everything better...which was even more sad. but my mother also drank four glasses of wine which was tres entertaining! santa did not bring me what i really wanted...a job in Chicago or Boston. Hey, St. Nick, you have until next year...get cracking! only 363 days left!
look at what i found on postsecret...appropriate, no?
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[21 Dec 2006|12:25pm] |
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Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same.
~ Marianne Williamson
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| Break and Boring both start with "B"...coincidence? |
[21 Dec 2006|01:25am] |
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so...i have been home since saturday afternoon. i have done nothing but watch movies...movies...movies...so many movies. these are the movies i have watched (thus far):
A Lot Like Love
Hitch
Strangers with Candy (part of...not all of)
Swimming Pool
The Crucible
The Flintstones Movie
Akeelah and the Bee
ok, so granted maybe that doesn't look like a lot. but believe me, it is. i also have been watching "Legends of the Hidden Temple" every chance i get.
i also made several CDs...those would be:
Sam's Town - The Killers
Hopes and Fears - Keane
Under the Iron Sea - (also) Keane
Waiting for My Rocket to Come - Jason Mraz
How to Save a Life - Jason Mraz
and...The Garden State Soundtrack
seriously, i am using my time SO wisely.
i got my grades yesterday. three A's and three B's...it has been years since i have received anything less than a C in math and/or science. looks like applying yourself actually does pay off.
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| i've been spending way too long checking my tongue in the mirror... |
[19 Dec 2006|02:45am] |
started round two of protein shakes today. it sucks, especially around christmas time. but i have to keep in mind that in the long run a cookie will not be as enjoyable as what the alternative will be.
ps...question...how in the world did justin timberlake ever become soooooooooooo hot??? lets just take a minute and enjoy, ok?
"Wait a second
She's hopped up on me
I've got her in my zone
Her body's pressed up on me
I think she's ready to blow
Must be my future sex love sound
And when it goes down
Baby all you gotta do is..."
"...Just tell me which way you like that
All you gotta do is
Tell me which way you like that
Do you like it like this?
Do you like it like that?
Tell me which way you like that
Tell me which way you like that"
"Those flashing lights come from everywhere
The way they hit her I just stop and stare
She's got me love stoned
Man I swear she's bad and she knows
I think that she knows
She's freaky and she knows it
She's freaky, but I like it"
"Come on and lemme show you 'round
Let me take you out, bet you we could have some fun girl
'Cause we can dress it up, we can dress it down
Any way you want it done girl...
Do what I gotta do, just gotta show you that I'm the one girl
Well I'mma freak you right, each and every night
I know how to do it insane girl
'Cause I can make it hot, make it stop
Make you wanna say my name girl"
happy holidays, ladies! a gift direct from me to you!
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[08 Dec 2006|03:33pm] |
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so i am SUPPOSED to be doing a web site right now on the 1960s. i have to make a page about the Cuban Missile Crisis, a page about the JFK Assassination, and a page about the Vietnam War. needless to say, i am NOT looking forward to it. death, destruction, bombs, fall-out shelters, helicopters flying over rice patties, Jackie Kennedy holding her husband's brains in her hands. it is depressing.
to lift me out of this blackhole of sadness, i am going chicago tomorrow. it is going to be showstoppin' good time with my two favorite lovers, jess and christina. but where, oh where, are we going to park for under $45??? hmmm...what a pickle!
am i at work right now. answering phones. you think it would be fabulous. but actually it is quite awful. because i am too busy thinking about the fact that for the rest of my life i will be living in a tentement for the rest of my life. i mean, i am going to be a teacher, i will make about $15 a year, which is, ya know, hot. jess and i were discussing it yesterday, because she at least knows that she has the possibility to make money, where as i have no chance. she justified it like this - she doing something pretty much purely for the money, yes, it is fun, but mostly there is money. whereas i am going to be doing something i love...
but do i really want to be a teacher? i always used to judge those people who change their majors their last semester of college. but now i see where they are coming from? my life is going to just be a sea of lesson plans and going to back to get more college credits and parent-teacher conferences and those sweater vests with apples and school buses on them. good god. i need to do some serious thinking. oh why? why do i have to second guess this future that i have been playing since i was in third grade?
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| new york. new york. |
[02 Dec 2006|03:29am] |
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i am going to new york in four months. i dont know what i am going to do with myself. i literally will have a crying fit and then die and go to heaven, simply to find that heaven is new york. i have been so inspired by all this new york chat, that i am going to make a list.
::THINGS THAT LAUREN MUST DO WHILEST IN NYC::
1. see at least two celebrities (and if i had a choice, they would be Tim Gunn and Sarah Jessica Parker)
2. find my great-grandfather's name on the wall at Ellis Island
3. sit by the Alice in Wonderland sculpture in Central Park
4. buy something (anything, a sock, i dont care!) in Greenwich Village or SoHo
5. wear around a foam Statue of Liberty crown
6. purchase one fake purse (preferably a Chanel quiltted bag)
7. get a picture with a NYC firefighter
8. be whistled at on the street by a group of construction workers (yeah, i'm a feminist. i swear!)
9. stand in the middle of Time Square and slowly turn in circle, taking everything in
10. spend a good five minute (or more) chunk of time, in silence, standing in front of a painting at the Met or MoMa
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| i mean semester, where have you gone? |
[01 Dec 2006|10:54pm] |
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it has officially been the hardest and most challenging semester of my life. and it is not over yet. but in two weeks from today it will be. if i just keep reminding myself to breathe and that writing papers is not the worst thing in the entire world.
so much has happened. in a nutshell, this has been my life - drinking at various bars/parties and school. and the occassional work...because i am officially in the workforce. WOO switchboard. actually it sucks, but it puts a little extra cash in my purse, so it cant be that bad. (i am not an alcoholic. not yet, at least)
actually two rather profound things occurred the past two days. the other day, i was sitting on the bus and i saw this couple, walking arm and arm, come up to the bus. they were so happy, so comfortable, so pleased to just be with each other. they didnt make me want to gag or anything, they were too genuine. when they kissed it seemed like the most natural and wonderful thing in their lives. as i watched them, i started to cry. it was so lovely. it was so what i want.
second profound thing. i went to ms. claire "i'm a DANCER" rochon's dance concert tonight. and i once again found myself missing dance. i miss throwing my body around in graceful and elegant motions. i miss standing on my toes and pulling back my hair with bottle of hairspray and hairnets. i need to stop watching dance. it just makes me jealous and regretful.
maybe i will update this more. maybe i won't, no one reads in anyway. but that's ok.
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| you're dear to me and so expensive, i'm not talking about money! |
[26 Sep 2006|01:01am] |
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so it has been about five years to update this! these are the updates of my life: i turned 22, i got a new phone/MP3 player, i got alcohol poisoning and almost died from drinking THREE pitchers at Waldo's (but was nursed back to health via Matt Shelton), classes started, classes suck, i had an amazing weekend with my summer loves in Indiana and at the Ghettobillies concert, i fell in love with the music of Jason Mraz and the Ghettobillies, found out my roommates are *still* amazing, survived an engine malfunction in my car, a gas leak in our stove, a non-working hot water heater, and being locked out of my room, i learned a new skill: breaking into bedroom doors, turned in my graduation audit, created a bitchin' Power Point on the life of Queen Elizabeth I, made a life plan for myself (my TO DO list for Spring '08: studet teach, graduate, find job...sounds easy enough, right?), realized that 22 is going to be a pretty good year.
::Drink wine; this is life eternal; this and all that youth will give to you; it is the season for wine, roses, and drunken friends; be happy for this moment; this moment is your life::
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| summertime, when the weather is hot... |
[22 Aug 2006|04:38pm] |
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summer is coming to a close. it was amazing and hot and frantic and festive and crazy and fabulous. it was filled with tears and fears and laughter and lots and lots of hugs. i am missing Stony Lake but i am way excited for school...not so much for actual classes but to move back into my apartment and hang out with my roommates and my friends and got to out the bars. i have a feeling that this is going to be a good year. i mean, my 21st year of life was absolutely TERRIFIC, and i think 22 is going to be verrrryyyy ZIG-A-ZAG-AAAAAA!!!!!
ps...i no longer look like that picture...i mean i sorta do, but not really!
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| tomorrow, the sun shines again |
[01 Jun 2006|11:34pm] |
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i am leaving for camp tomorrow...so i wont be updating this all that often...not that i have been updating it all that often lately...but anyways...to the three people that read this - have a beautiful summer and thanks for putting up with my ridiculous rambling on livejournal.
and if you forget what i look like...this is what i will be looking like all summer long...
enjoy!
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| there's a lady that's sure that all the glitters is gold... |
[16 May 2006|06:53pm] |
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so i just had the best afternoon ever. i got to babysit my five year old cutie-pie of a cousin, Maria. we went outside to play with sidewalk chalk but ended up getting locked outside the house for 2 hours, which turned out to be a blessing. we got to go on an adventure and explore the "forests" of Brighton and hunt for wishing flowers. i wish i was five again...someone had caution-tape across their driveway because they were having it re-paved and Maria saw it and said, "what are they doing? are they going to have a race?" is there anything more precious than that? no, there is not!
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| some favorite quotes |
[13 May 2006|02:12pm] |
*sometimes your nearness takes my breath away; and all the things i want to say can find no voice. then, in the silence, i can only hope my eyes will speak my heart*
*too often we underestimate the power of a touch, a smile, a kind word, a listening ear, an honest compliment, or the smallest act of caring, all of which have the potential to turn a life around.*
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